Dear young people of tumblr,

     Well hi there, I am Zeba Koli. I have a few things to talk to you about; depression, love life and goals.

      The first time I was diagnosed with depression was about a year and a half ago in September. I have no idea what led me to be depressed and nobody knows how people get depression but we do know it is a biological thing. (I have no idea who else in my family has it). When I found out I had it some of my family members thought I was crazy, they really did not understand me. No matter how much I tried to explain they will not listen to me properly. There came a moment where I became suicidal and at exactly 0:00pm I got the knife from the kitchen and was slowly going to dig into my skin to my heart. I called for help because I realised that there are many people who are in my position and what I need to do is recover. I wanted to kill myself because of family issues and the direct result of my families ignorance could have led me to my death. When I was hospitalised that is when everybody realised that depression is a mental illness and there is a lot more to it. I have had my depression tablets changed around so many times and now I am on fluoxetine (40mg, tablets been increased to two doses). I have the most weirdest personality, I am either too happy, or too aggressive. I only become depressed when I am in an emotional situation. I get you, I really do. However, suicide and cutting yourself is not the way forward and I learnt that the hard way. You need to get help if you are also depressed and harm yourself.

        There will come a time where you start to fall in love. However, do not go out looking for love it will come naturally. If you ever get into an abusive relationship that is your cue to leave. No joke. Do not even bother going back to somebody who treats you like a nuisance, do you realise that people who make you feel like you do not mean anything do not deserve your friendship? If you get cheated on do not ever go back to that person, what makes you so sure they will not do it again? A lot of problems people face with people whom are cheaters they go back to them and assume they will change but are left disappointed. If you have made a mistake, it is ok. It is ok to make mistakes and come back from it.

         Concentrate on where you want to be, what you plan to become when you are older. A lot of young people have depression, love life problems and even adults experience it. Just remember something, concentrate on your education more and I promise you, you will be victorious.

Sincerely,

Zeba Koli.